Why Choosing to Keep My Child Was the Greatest Risk that I Don't Regret?

One of my greatest risks, which I don't regret, is listening to God's plan for me to be a mother. When I found out I was pregnant, I was at a point in my life where I thought I was invisible. I've always said I didn't want kids, and I wanted to be the rich auntie that everyone loved. However, that changed when I found out I was pregnant. I cried immediately, thinking my life was over. I thought this wasn't going to work out because I'm not married, I'm not in a relationship, I haven't finished graduate school, and I am unemployed. At that moment, I decided to get an abortion.

The night before the appointment, I remember arguing with my child's father, demanding he meet me at the clinic to abort our child the next morning. While leaving Cracker Barrel, I got a flat tire, and after putting the spare on, that deflated as well. So, we stopped at a gas station, and there the air tank did not work, causing me to leave my car overnight. (Side note: That Saturday before, God had already sent a random girl to me in the park to pray for me. He had already answered my question... I remembered saying, "God, show me green apples if I should keep this child and figure life out, but if not, show me squash." Not even realizing, I ordered fried apples from Cracker Barrel.) But when I got home, my favorite show, The Game, was on, and I was watching the episode when Janay told Derwin she was pregnant. There was a bowl of green apples on the table.

However, that wasn't it. Getting up the next morning, my child's father picked me up, and then we went to check on my car while still attempting to go to the appointment. My car was gone. It was towed, and the money I had for an abortion, I had to use to get my car back and also purchase more tires for my car.

Since February 2023, God has been revealing to me that He has a plan, and it is His plan, and He's always in control. I'll never regret keeping my child again, I'll never regret my decision, and I'll never complain about this blessing God has granted me because in all, He saw something in me to upgrade my character for His kingdom. And since that decision, God has been blessing and protecting me with rejection, correction, and grace. A decision I can't regret.